the name sucks!

gahh~~ i tried to change my blog few times already . because i'm so boring with that ridiculous ID,,, 'janganblog' . seriously, do you guys think that name is stupid? . Kind of dorky?? . I think that name is stupid . I wasn't thinking when i created it . Come on,, my blog,, this blog has been around like for 4 years . that time i was a nerd . so i thought that that name is something that no one can copy because its sound BIZARRE . totally . but now i felt like that name is so LAMEE.... what the hell was i thinking?? . gosh! . and now i can't change it back unless i create a new blog which is way out of my will . i'm so damn tired . been stuck in front of my laptop for 3 hours just to change that ID back,, AND I JUST CANT!! . if only i'm the one who invent this stupid blogger i will change the settings so that it will be convenient for stupid people like me to change that stupid ID back!

Cerita lelaki yang hensem dan lelaki yang tak hensem

I came across this page on FB. Tajuk page tu "Kami Pelik Lelaki Tak Hensem Dapat Awek Superb". Well, this is a very interesting topic to discuss. Ok, why? Kenapa jadi macam ni? Sometimes aku nampak girlfriend dia punya la cun tapi sekali tengok boyfriend dia terfikir dekat otak aku "Hebatnya mamat tuh". Yes! Ini yang aku fikir setiap kali aku jumpa couple girlfriend cun boyfriend tak berapa nak cun. Why I think like that? Because mesti ada something yang special yang membuatkan girlfriend die boleh jatuh cinta dengan boyfriend yang tak hensem nih. Maybe sifat lelaki tu ke yang baik or penyayang or something yang perempuan tu nak ade pada boyfriend die yang tak hensem tapi tak ade pada mane-mane lelaki yang hensem dekat luar sana. DIFFERENT PEOPLE DIFFERENT TASTE.

Kadang-kadang pulak aku keluar dengan member-member and aku tengok ade pulak couple yang boyfriend die hensem tapi girlfriend die pulak tak lawa. Ini ape cerita? Setiap kali kalau aku nampak couple macam ni dekat mana-mana first thing yang aku fikir "Hensem giler boyfriend die". Hahaha sumpah aku jealous! Siapa tak nak boyfriend hensem kan? Sama jugak siapa tak nak awek cun betul tak? Perempuan ni sifat memilih sama je macam lelaki. Lelaki nak yang cantik so adil lah perempuan pulak nak yang hensem. But there's second thing that came to my mind was "Untung perempuan tu. Macam mana agaknye die boleh dapat boyfriend hensem?". So why? Maybe same jugak macam couple tadi yang boyfriend tak hensem tu perempuan tadi ni jugak maybe has something that what pretty ladies don't have.

Maybe la boyfriend yang hensem tu muka je hensem tapi perangai pun tak lah hensem mana. So dapat la pulak awek yang tak berapa nak cun. Kira sesuailah memandangkan perangai die tak berape nak hensem jugak. Or maybe awek yang cun tadi pun perangai pun suam-suam kuku je so padanla boyfriend die tak hensem. Maybe boyfreind and girlfreind yang tak hensem tadi perangai pun teruk tapi telah ditakdirkan oleh Tuhan dapat girlfriend yang cun and boyfriend yang hensem dengan perangai yang baik untuk ubah diorang ke arah kebaikan. Who knows? Anything can happen. LIFE IS FULL OF SUPRISES.

Kalau aku bagi contoh la animals for example. Kalau singa betina nak mengawan die akan mengawan dengan singa jantan yang menang dalam perlawanan. Singa yang paling gagah and paling kuat la yang dapat mengawan untuk satu-satu musim tu. Singa yang kalah ni tak dapat lah den nak tolong kan. Terpaksa la cari lain. But different pulak dengan penguin. Bila musim mengawan penguin betina akan mengawan dengan penguin yang dapat kutip batu yang paling baik untuk dihadiahkan kepada penguin betina. Batu yang dibawa oleh penguin jantan inilah yang digunakan untuk memikat penguin betina. Bayangkan dekat artik ade batu ke? So terpaksa la penguin jantan ni berjalan terkedek-kedek berbatu jauhnya setakat nak cari sekecil batu. Takkan la nak bawak batu konkrit pulak kan penguin je kot. Batu yang terbaik je la yang akan dipilih oleh penguin betina ni. Tak kisah la macam mana pun rupa penguin jantan tu. And kalau nak tahu penguin hanya mengawan dengan satu sahaja pasangannya untuk seumur hidup. Plus, penguin jantan lah yang akan mengeram telur-telur dan menjaga anak-anaknya while penguin betina keluar mencari makanan. Tak Ada Poligami Ada Kompromi ;)). I likeee..

So what I meant is everything is a PREPARATION! Attitude is what matters. Doesn't matter how you look as long as you are good at heart. Bukan ke lelaki yang baik hanya untuk perempuan yang baik. Tak ada pulak hadis sebut lelaki yang hensem hanya untuk perempuan yang cantik. Kalau muka je hensem lawa tapi perangai hodoh tak gune jugak. Kalau difikir-fikirkan kan? This is all part of the nature rule. Kalau lelaki yang hensem hanya untuk perempuan yang cantik, macam mana pulak dengan yang tak hensem dan yang tak cantik tu? Tak adil la kan. Dunia ini bulat. Belah lah macam mana pun still dapat angle yang sama. Adil kan?

So I wrote on that page "Cinta itu buta. Lelaki hensem perangai hensem is powerful. Lelaki hensem perangai tak hensem is a waste. Lelaki tak hensem perangai hensem is wonderful. Lelaki tak hensem perangai pun tak hensem is a shame". Well that goes to the ladies too. Aku pernah kenal lelaki yang hensem dan lelaki yang tak hensem. I believe there's not much difference between them. Tapi ak pernah kenal lelaki yang pernah lukakan hati aku dan what he did to me is strictly because of his jerk attitude. I don't even care how he look but what he did reminds me that sometimes what you see is not what you get. Kita boleh tipu luaran kita tapi kita tak kan dapat tipu diri sendiri.

Orang yang cantik dan hensem tak semestinya baik dan perfect. Dan orang yang tak cantik dan tak hensem tak semestinya tak baik semuanya. Nobody is perfect. And I believe 200% to this saying "BEAUTY IS IN THE EYE OF THE BEHOLDER".

Credit to the page "Kami Pelik Lelaki Tak Hensem Dapat Awek Superb" for coming out with such a great piece that made me think a little bit ;)

kalau lah dapat mamat ni memang best! Hehe tapi kalau tak dapat pun tak apa ;))

my reading habit - is a fairytale story

i was searching some website on the internet . then i ran through this website about books,, and i suddenly realized that i haven't read books for so long! . i used to read books and novels . i even have collection of books at my home where i used to read whenever i had spare time . and i used to buy books . my hobby before was reading (still remember when i was in form 4 - and my friends asked me to write a biography - and i wrote my hobby there - READING) until i went to matric and then started busy with studies . no longer books authored by Nicholas Sparks or Sophie Kinsella or Sidney Shieldon . only lecture notes by En. Hisham,, Pn. Fazilah and Pn. Azimah (all of them was my 2nd sem lectures- i forgot names of my 1st sem lectures- hahaha ;p) which i got stuck with it everyday .

and now even after matric,, which i have so much time (so much time - for taking bath almost 1 hour huhu) i didn't even get back to my reading hobby . why??? . now i'm thinking about all the reasons why i don't use to read anymore ........ . ..................

hurmmmm,,, well the first reason came to my mind was money . since i'm practically broke (which some people supposed to have a little bit mercy on me - especially the one who is capable to take care of my expenses - my sister) i can't buy books anymore . what kind of books i can buy with just enough money to top up for a week?? . NONE . so lastly i didn't buy books and my hobby seems to be perished .

but then again,, i thought of another reason why i didn't read books anymore,, is because of the so-called-next-big-thing (which you already know) - Facebook . yeah,, i think because of FACEBOOK i didn't read books anymore . why?? . why not? . it's has been a dutiful task everyday for me to check out my FB . it has become an addiction for me - yeah i am a FB addict . (bapak giler sokong yahudi ak nih! - astaghfirullahalazim) .

fuh! . i need to go to rehab . someone! . try to get me to rehab now! . and maybe a reading class . huhuhu . i am such a crazy girl with so much issue . hahahahah XD

haha . i guess that's the effect of long time loneliness disorder . i'm a FB addict . i don't read anymore . i care less . i talks too much . i thinks very little . i don't date anyone right now . i'm single . haha . if you like me you better hurry ;))

currently thinking about the best way to update my pages on FB . huhuhu

realised that i'm still a girl in school uniform

ooowh SAD ;'( . still didn't have the chance to watch prince of persia . i've been waiting that movie for so long . wish i have someone to watch it with me . anyone?? . hehe . parah dah ak nih ;) .

yup! . i think i'm goin a lil bit crazy . alone all by myself . tade org nk kat ak ke? . tadela kot . huhu terpaksela bersendirian . i like being single as long as i have something to do . not like now . sitting at home alone . doing nothing . i woke up late everyday . taking bath too long . doing so much laundry . cleaning the house . watching tv all day . at nite online FB for hours long . sleep early in the morning . then everything happen all over again the next day . than sitting at home,, i rather go back to matric . i don't care about the exhaustion or classes or assignments as long as i do something . seriously .

or maybe considering to go back to high school . damn . i miss high school so much . the life there is so fun and memorable . my sweet 16, my senior year, my junior year . i can say that my best moment happened in school . where i learned how to step out in this world . i learned everything there . wish i can go back and able to make miracles again . Methodist Girl School Klang the best placed i've ever been ! .

owh,, miss my school days . for those who still studying in school especially to all juniors in MGS . treasure every moment in school . because you'll miss it . and you'll never get back to school to those years where you grow up with loving teachers and friends .

currently my mind and my soul was taken back to my school ;p . goodnite everyone .