mai ke penang! wahoo! hoyeah2!

owh did i tell you that i will go to penang for uitm?? . i guess not . haha .
well it's official . i will study in penang . wahoo!! . sonoknya! . leh holiday mah! . hoyeah2! .

kepada yang masuk mane2 tu jgn jeles ok . penang is the best place . holiday, shopping, sight-seeing, makan lagi... ha makan apa ko nak? . makan angin pn buleh tau! . huhu .

haii...hensem tak mamat2 penang sane? . gatai no! . of course la . to be my 'spirit lifter' . uhuhu . release tension . ntah2 dapat anak mami tak? hamik kau! hidung mancung cam shah rukh khan . kulit ala tan2 gitu . hahaha! . ehem . first year kne la pancing2 senior dulu ye tak? ehehe .
hurm what is it like to live there ea? can't wait to go there . to those who might go to belah utara sana or wants to pay me a visit ( pe salahnya dtg melawat . kan kan? ) meh meh . the more the merrier! .
oii penang! . tunggu cik dien mai na! lalalalala~~~
* tade makne pn post ni . uhuhu XD

no title can describe this post

people said that you can't live in the past to start a whole new life . well,,there's a problem because i live in the past for so long . until today to tell the truth,, i still miss him . only god knew how much i miss him . all our memories still kept in my heart . i could not let it go . so many times i have been thinking why i still stuck in the past even when i already moved on . or did i really moved on?? .

thinking about that make me felt powerless . right now even a snapped can break me into pieces . i still miss him . but why? . i didn't wait for him anymore . i stop waiting for him quite long ago . i asked my heart that question,,and it answered because i need him . i never need a person like i need him . and i guess he will never find that out .

the strange thing is,, of course i miss him when how can i miss other person when i always wanting to be with him? . how can i not love him when he is the only person i have ever been closed to?
how can i forget him when he make the ground shook by saying " I miss you" when he texted me at each time since we broke up? .

i am still his ex-girlfriend . i knew where's my place . but when he said like that,, he made me confused . do i still in my place where i knew i was? . or he taking me to somewhere else ? . i didn't dare to ask him that . because i have no strength to deal with that pain again .

i didn't tell him . but i do miss him so much . i miss the time when we change our stories . about what we did for the day . about my life and hearing his . i didn't miss him because his my ex . i didn't miss him because i didn't see him . i miss him because he's the only person that i can share anything . and i felt that i found myself .

hurm........ words can't describe my feeling . i don't think that by writing it any longer can actually make you understand .